Stories - Chapter 12

Stories - Chapter 12

Huiwen Wu 17/10/2017 8

I was a good girl, but deep inside, I was quite a rebel. In front of my parents, I always behaved well. I went to the school they wanted me to go; did the courses they wanted me to do; worked hard to get the grades they expected me to get. But what I really wanted was just to draw.




My strategy was that I’d meet all my parents’ requirements, so that I could do whatever I wanted the rest of my day. I’ve always loved drawing. I would start it myself, draw all day long, and could never stop. For me, drawing is a way to unleash my feelings.


In my last year of high school, I finally asked my parents to let me decide once, at least once, for my own life. They were shocked. At the time, I was in the middle of intensive preparations for the college entrance exams both in China and in the US. I did my SAT and had already received offers from a number of American universities, but I was ready to give them all up. I wanted to go to an art school instead.


This became the turning point in my life. I’ve never fought so badly against my parents, and ended up winning my battle. I went on to study illustration, even though I was not 100 percent sure about my decision. I had no idea about my future. I just felt that I should do it, or I would be sorry for myself.



I am now finishing my master’s degree in graphic design at UAL.Yet, I am getting perplexed. Sometimes, I can’t help but think what if I had done business or accounting instead, what would I be doing right now? Future is something you don’t dare think much about, partly because you witnessed the path of the talented peers – those who used to be ahead of you, the ones you used to look up to, coming here, full of curiosity, hopes and dreams, just like you. But then, they went back to China, struggled, fought, and finally, surrendered to the reality.


They were doing small jobs here there just to sustain their lives, and the dreams were dead. Even for those who managed to stay in the art industry, every creation was made out of a desperate need for survival. I do not mean that I regret. There is no regret, and I will not stop moving forward. But I do get scared. Most of the time you are surrounded by nothing but loneliness. Even though you did achieve some level of recognition, so what?



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  • Cande Argañaraz

    Life can be hard for lonely people, if you need someone to talk or vent to, reply to this comment, we can all help each other.

  • Ruth DeLeon

    I had a bunch of people who I thought were my mentors in music. I would stay up with them until very late hours, listening to their accomplishments. Whenever I ask for help, they would say that they are busy writing new songs, not having time to talk to an amateur like me. It was terrible, and that's what made me lose a lot of respect for some of my favorite artists. Thought I'd just share my thought, so yeah.

  • Nikos

    Not gonna lie, I teared up a bit while reading this.

  • Kumar Mohit

    It's sad that so many people cannot pursue their dreams because of their parents' decisions :(

  • Oliver White

    Very Deep !!!!!!!

  • Pedro Paulo Gomes

    Curious to know if she succeed in her path

  • Ghassane

    As a painter, I can relate to her. Been isolating myself for 7 years now, I can't even go outside without feeling anxious or feeling being watched all the time. This is very much like me and what I felt and feel. Thank you for expressing the feelings of people who suffer like this. Thank you for being a voice for those who are without a voice quietly wasting away.

  • Christina Hoffmeister

    My problem is that I feel tired of being tired, but then I know that people probably are feeling worse somewhere in the world....

    Then I feel like a little piece of shit for acting like I'm the only one who feels tired, so then I feel even worse about myself, and the cycle repeats...



Huiwen Wu

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Huiwen is the founder of WeClustr, an online community for creators, makers in arts, crafts or any creative businesses. She completed her bachelor and master's degrees at Tongji University, ESSEC Business School and the London School of Economics. 


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